16 May 2008

Good Little Girl

I was a "good little girl" today. I took my pill yesterday and today, on time. If this has any chance of working, I want to make sure I don't screw it up.
Today I hung out with Michelle and later I hung with Korinne. I just love their little girls. They are so cute. I love to see Michelle and Korinne with their babies. It's awesome to see the love and bond and to just watch them care for their baby like nobody else can. They are mommies, yaye.
I can't wait. But until then, I'll babysit Reese and Samantha. Double yaye.
I really appreciate my friends. I have good ones who are understanding and supportive and encouraging. Thank the Lord and Thank those gals who are just so awesome.

12 May 2008

I think it's a subconscious thing

So, I'm supposed to be taking birth control. I'm on my last month. Then when I get off, Corey and I are supposed to try every other day. Well, I'm not sure if it's going to work anymore, because I keep forgetting to take the stupid pill. I did it last month too. (although I did have a period last month, which is supposed to be the point) Hopefully I didn't screw it up. I think I subconsciously hate being on the pill and just want to get on the clomid. (well, maybe not so subconsciously, because I realize it) I guess I feel like, I was on birth control before and I didnt get pregnant when I got off, but then again, we didn't try every other day then. From what I remember it was a pretty low-sex month for us. Not that you want to know that. lol. I'm just going to keep praying about it and do what the doc says.

On a side note, I've made so many friends the last month. I feel so blessed. Well, I've met a few people and then I've developed better relationships with people I already knew. AND, Michelle, one of my best friends, is coming home this week! She's been in TX for school. I'm so glad to have my buddy back.

And one more thing. I've been more active lately. I've been learning more and more and now I really have a true desire to be a healthier person. I've been watching what I eat and I've been jogging almost everyday. The days I don't go jogging I'm doing other active things, like whitewater rafting and rock climbing. The biggest suprise is that I LOVE it. Working out used to be such a chore for me. I look forward to jogging and doing things. so much fun. okay better go shower, I'm all sweaty from jogging.

Here are some pictures of us whitewater rafting on one of my non-jogging days. (I would've went jogging, but we got back at 7:30 haha)

06 May 2008

Here We Go

Here we go, Corey and I, well mostly I, decided that people ask God to cure cancer, then I can ask God flat out to make me pregnant. I was at bible study Sunday and I felt overwhelmed with the fact that I should pray everynight aloud with Corey for the next two weeks. About anything, but paticularly for a baby. I have been praying for God's will for a long time now, knowing that God knows my heart and has a plan for us. I wasn't praying everyday and it wasn't a delibrate, I'm going to pray everyday for this, it was whenever I was thinking about it.
I'm changing it. I will pray whenever I am thinking about it, but I am going to set aside time everynight to pray with Corey that God will bless us with a child, at least for the next two weeks. We can and have been praying about other things too.
It was great, I decided this Sunday Night and asked Corey if he would join me and he said of course. Well, Monday night we lost track of time and he ran off to work without us praying. I realized it after he left and decided I would stay up til 4am to pray with Him. Wouldn't you know it, God gave him the night off. He came back in a half hour and we prayed. It was awesome!

03 May 2008

How blessed am I

How blessed am I that I get to know God.
That I get to be loved and reassured by Him.
That I know what it's like to be in his presence.
Sometimes I take my life for granted. I take all the blessings in my life for granted, especially my salvation. Isn't that embarassing?

01 May 2008

The Quest

The Quest, is my husband and my quest to get pregnant. We've been married since December '05 and we've been off birth control since October '06. We weren't really trying until July '07. So, about October '07 is when we started to talk to a doctor about infertility. So far, we've ran several tests. The problem is I don't ovulate regularly. If I'm not on birth control then I have about 8 periods a year, maybe. You can imagine that when you are trying to get pregnant, having your period not coming really messes with your mind. I kept thinking I was pregnant.
Anyways, it was really hard to deal with it, but eventually I gave it up to God. I'm in a good spot, I trust God. It's still hard, sometimes it's really hard, but I have a great supportive husband, a friend that is especially supportive, and God.
Right now, I'm on birth control to jump start my body to ovulate. When I get off we are supposed to try every other day and hopefully get pregnant. If that doesn't work then we'll be trying a drug called Clomid.
I'm supposed to be on birth control for 3 months. I just finished my second month, but I think I might have to get off sooner. I haven't had my period and I was supposed to get it the day I got to the placebo pills. I have until Monday to start and then I need to call my doctor, because I may be pregnant or it simply isn't working to jumpstart my ovulation.
Obviously you know what I want the results to be. lol.
Well, that's what's going on. My dream for this blog is to go from being an infertility blog to being a pregnancy blog to being a baby blog/mommy blog.